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Tuesday, February 9th, 2010
1:38 pm
Heyyy everyone!  How are you all doing after all these years?  I must say, I have tamed down a lot.  Or have I??     That is the question.
Thursday, May 10th, 2007
11:54 pm
Hey guys, my name is Chelsea, and my diagnosis is still unknown.  However, if I had to guess based on what the doctors have told me, I have Bipolar II Disorder, as well as an Anxiety Disorder, anger management problems, and a somatoform disorder.  When I stress out, even when I don't think I am, my body totally falls apart.  My hair falls out, I get fevers, headaches, gastrointestinal problems, blurred vision, numbness in my limbs, tremors, ect.  The worst are the seizures that I have because of stress.  Psychogenic seizures they're called.  I had never heard of them before, to this day I still feel dumb whenever I have them, they feel fake, but I know they are real.  Does anyone else have  those?  I'm currently taking Kepra for the seizures and I'm on Paxil for depression and anxiety.  Does anyone have any ideas on what could be wrong with me?  Cause the doctors sure as hell don't know lol.

Current Mood: tired
Saturday, February 3rd, 2007
2:20 pm
hey guys im jade. im borderline bipolar depressed psychotic w an anxiety disorder. lookin for people to talk to . johnnytjetboy is my aim sn. im on meds and pretty stable right now.
Monday, October 10th, 2005
8:39 pm
I suffer from depression issues and am being treated.
This is like an intro about me.
I'm bi, i use lj and deviantart http://timmy64.deviantart.com
I tried to kill myself multiple times and am on medication.

My story has the happy ending, i'm on treatment and happier.

Current Mood: HI
Saturday, July 9th, 2005
10:13 pm
reciever of ECT
about a week ago I got my last ECT, I had 12 total I think...
I have little to know memory right now,

anyone else get ECT?

anyone from MN...?


Current Mood: fucked in the head
Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
9:31 pm
© You're not crazy. ©

Bipolar Disorder: You're not alone.

Thursday, October 9, 2003 is Bipolar Disorder Awareness Day.
Sunday, January 30th, 2005
5:37 pm
Here we go...
I'm female...
I have cyclothymia (it's A LOT like bipolar disorder)
I am schizophrenic
And I think I might have an OCD but I'm not sure.

I'm 15 and have been on my meds for 4 years. They keep changing but I am currently on Lamotrigine for the cyclothymia. I haven't told any adult I'm a schizo yet.

Name: Steph (choose a nickname below)
Nickanmes: Roses, Doll, Psycho, Schizo, Eos

*is getting bored with the typing* For more info, read my LJ. please, thankies.

Pleased to not be the only crazy one here.

Saturday, December 25th, 2004
11:55 am
merry CHRISTmas





so get on your backpacks kids, go out to ride the sleigh!


Current Mood: energetic
Sunday, November 28th, 2004
9:55 pm
Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
11:46 am
I hate to do this, and this is in no ways a way to undermine and steal members from other communities but:

Heylo, I am a Toronto-based New Media artist who suffers from Bipolar Type II. I am collecting stories from other mental illness sufferers to be included in an installation this February 2005. If you are interested in writing about your mental illness and having it anonymously become a piece of art-installation please join at mentalmoments

Thanks for your time.
Friday, November 5th, 2004
5:51 pm
Where's my Sam?

I keep watching Benny & Joon. Its as if I am obbsessed. I have watched three time scince I have been out of the hospital. I want so bad to find a man or woman like Sam. Someone to understand me, and love me regardless.

I am alot like Joon. For I live in my own world, and I make my own rules. I have sudden outbursts. I don't have anyone like Benny though to take care of me, and I definatly don't have my Sam.

A romance on the brink of reality...

Current Mood: anxious
4:13 pm
What a wonderful way to look at it, us, our illnesses. Challange is good, even if I make myself a little crazy sometimes.

But I like the idea for the group,
Saturday, October 16th, 2004
11:23 am
about a month ago i was diagnosed as having bipolar disorder (along with Geralized anxiety disorder and adhd, but that is irrelevent to my question), based on me telling my therapist that i have alot of mood swings, ie: happy one minute, in tears the next, anxiety, etc etc. she sent me off to the a psychatrist, i just kept going along with what i was told and the doctor gave me medicine, and started me on min 1/4 of the dose that he wanted me to be on eventually, and thats when all hell broke lose, i started feeling very panicy my heart raced, i was shaky, and i called this doctor many times to tell him what was happening, and he told me it was my "disorder." i was just having an episode, well being that ive never experianced anythign like what i experianced while being on medication, i began having doubts, and i called several times to tell him what was going on and he just blamed it on the disorder, upped medication, and added a different medication (each day things got worse), this was all in the course of about 5 days.(this is why i wasnt in class last week). he said i was descirbing a classic manic episode, and if ive neevr experianced what i experianced then, obviously ive neevr had a manic episode. now that ive began reading up on bipolar disorder, im beginnging to have serious doubts that i have it, in fact im 100% sure that i dont. even with talking with my family and people who have been around me my entire life, think this diagnosis is absurd, except i work as a live in nanny, and when i first told the family my diagnosis they were very supportive of me, and know i am capable of taking care of their kids, but of course the mother went and told some people and said "and you let her live with you and take care of your kids?" i expressed my doubts to her, and she just went on to tell me dont be suprised if another doctor tells me i am bipolar, because im the one who said i have mood swings, (but really who doesnt have mood swings?), i have cut all ties with my old therapist and doctor, have gotten a new therapist and have an appointment with a psychatrist on tuesday, when i go in do i tell him about the previous diagnosises? or should i just say id like an evaluation, i just dont feel right?
Saturday, September 4th, 2004
6:54 pm
im here at my dads work playing games on the internet. im kinda bored but yeah at least i get to go on the internet because my internet has been disconnected at home. he is even letting me listen to music and he hates my music. so im really apprecieated of that. then he is gonna take me to the mall after wards. i want him to t\get me a sweat shirt cause yeah i want another one i want a zip up on. i haveent been on here for a while cause my internet at home is off. but yeah im taking trig now its hard and i also have to tutor 3 kids at school. i took 3 test and aced all of them with flying colors. i have really done a 360 in school. but yeah buye for now

Current Mood: accomplished
6:54 pm
im here at my dads work playing games on the internet. im kinda bored but yeah at least i get to go on the internet because my internet has been disconnected at home. he is even letting me listen to music and he hates my music. so im really apprecieated of that. then he is gonna take me to the mall after wards. i want him to t\get me a sweat shirt cause yeah i want another one i want a zip up on. i haveent been on here for a while cause my internet at home is off. but yeah im taking trig now its hard and i also have to tutor 3 kids at school. i took 3 test and aced all of them with flying colors. i have really done a 360 in school. but yeah buye for now

Current Mood: accomplished
Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
4:52 pm
uhhh high
well im offically trippin out ohhhhh yea
i feel good lol
wow im like floating im gonna wtrite this as is no corrections watever i type iz wat im gonna write yea u i feel auwsome i love this shit i get my meth 2 morror but yeah umm ahhh lalala uggg...................................... im kinda rendy but yeah ill stopp ok this music is fucking trippy as fuck k ok im ok i feel high im at shalinas house tripping i love every one i feel like a hippy.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................oh shit oops.........lol lol lol lol lol lol lol

Current Mood: high
2:17 pm
trippin out (well not yet)
hello i just took some tripple c and im starting to feel it a lil bit im at shalinas house and i cant wait to feel the effects lucky shalina she will probally feel it alot more than me because she hasnt done it as much. each time you do it your tolerance gets higher so you need more. your supose to start out at eight unless your hella skinny then it will be 6 then each time the effects are less and less so you have to take a lil more its non addictive and if you were to get tested it would show up as cough medicne. the ingredient in it that gets you fucked up is the dextroseum in each pill it has 10 milligrams of that and a garunteed high. if you get horney on it it sux for you cause if you tried to masterbate you will not be able to climax not saying from experience or any thing lol. most of your body gets numb but that doesnt happen to all people and yeah it just feels really good its like a mild acid tripp ...

.................................living dead girl....................................

Current Mood: crazy
11:11 am
ugg....... i feel like crap well some fucking happy crap. my doctor is trying to make me take some meds that arnt good for you she says it will help me. im supose to be on a shit load of meds they made me feel like i was brain dead and made me gain hella weight. i dont give a shit anywayz i like my mood swings. i love feeling like im supperior to everyone when im manic i like feeling like im the smartest one in the world i like staying up all night and allways managing to keep myself bussy by doing things no body else would have ever done the depression isnt that bad besides the cutting and the attempted suicides.lol. but the only thing that sux is i get more depressions than manias because of my borderline personality that causees depression too. i try and act stupid with my shrink so i can figure out ways where i dont have to take any meds and get more manic i already got one out of her. have any of you who are bi polar stayed up all night and you were really tired then morning came and you werent tired any more you were actually quite hyper. well thats how to get manic it will be hard at first but it works. i love my manias but once in a great while i get a mania when i dont know what the fuck im doing and saying im just there i think im invisible like i can walk around naked and they wont see me even if im talking to someone at the moment i wont be comprehendiing everything is faster than shit even my thoughts i feel like im god no Satan cause i get little devious thoughts in my head i also think people can hear my thoughts when i say i want to murder them in my head but then there always scared of me once in a while ill play and choke them (but was i really playing?) the room your in looks kinda yellow and you feel good as shit mabe like you just smoked hella meth your heat rate gets extremely high then i come home and they think im on drugs my parents dont really understand the meaning of bi polar when i told them that im Hallucinating they said its that lsd or pot that im probally smoking i say well fuck you you dont understand and slam my door. but yeah ummm............ i have that super mania right now.........

Current Mood: manic
Saturday, August 14th, 2004
2:54 am
So lately I've been in chat rooms and forum for things talking about Bipolar (any of the types), paranoia, psychosis, and schizophrenia . No I'm not schizo my mother is, but I have a pretty good chance of getting after my eighth grade bout with psychosis, and the fact that it's in my family. If it isn't enough that I'm Bipolar I, let's add the chance of schizophrenia and see how she likes that.

I don't really see an actually psychiatrist, just therapy and counseling at the college I attend (Ball State University). I really think that I need to see an actual psychiatrist , but my insurance doesn't transfer to Indiana from Michigan( Medicaid sucks!), and I refuse to transfer home. I really need a serious break from home.

The things that I have read from the post on the forums I have been to are very scary. Almost all have been hospitalized , cutters, multiple medicines, and suicide. I have only been through suicides attempts, and psychosis. These things scare me. How do these people function. I have a hard time functional anyway, but to keep a relationship must be hard.

I don't know. I don't have any friends who are also bipolar so I have no one to talk to, or no one to relate too. Half the time I just think it's something in my mind, and that I'm in a deep sleep and dreaming the whole thing. But when I look back at my life I've must of been dreaming since I was sick because I've been seriously depressed since I was 11.

I just guess the thought scares me. Plus since I only see the school therapist I'm beginning to think I need to see an actually psych. Anyone who can help please contact me.
Friday, August 13th, 2004
12:05 am
Hello everybody, I'm Cierrah, Im 17 and I'm from Ohio. Uhh I'm bipolar? Yeah.

Weakness? I have no weakness. I am greater than the fabled Carrot Top. I am mightier than the pen and the sword. I.. am the great... Lara Croft!!! *wicked bales of hysterical laughter*

Current Mood: blank
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